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Beloved Twin Flame

 

I want to write to you how differently I experience the Twin Flame Journey now from the dogma version. To me you are not less awakened or the runner. You are me in another body; you are me with different experiences. You are a slightly more masculine version of me and I know the same is true for you, just mirrored. I have by now cried enough of your tears and have experienced enough thought fusion with you to know that what I write is really true for both of us. We really are one being; one soul in two bodies. I also know that my yearning for physical union amplifies your yearning for physical union and vice versa (and that yearning implicates separation/ lack).

It took me years to come to this understanding. I had to go through the very dramatic, dark and steep learning curve with The Catalyst/ My False Twin Flame.

 

This was not a journey that I have welcomed at the beginning. I hated sharing thoughts and emotions, because I really felt that my thoughts were the only place of privacy for me. It was a place where I could be as ugly as I wanted to be. It was the only place where I felt free, especially from the influence of man. Not just in a broader patriarchal or authoritarian sense, but in a spousal sense. For a long time I didn’t have control over my body: whether I’d be fed in abundance or punished with no food available; whether I’d be locked inside the house or outside; sex with or without my permission; or periods of no touching at all and years of no kissing etc. So I wasn’t a happy camper when I suddenly had not just one man’s thoughts and emotions in my head and body, but two. It took years before I realized that you are the one that never forces, you never “possessed” my body and your thoughts aren’t a scary place.

Mine used to be.

 

My false twin flame journey followed the twin flame journey dogma: a shared third energy/ chakras; shared heart cord and even false light angelic beings performing/ creating an energetic marriage; push and pull relationship dynamic; co-dependency; abuse (all forms) and the polarities of empath and narcissist. Although the longer I am on this journey the more I realize that those polarities are really mine; within me. I am having more and more compassion for my shadow self; understanding her and loving her.

 

After the eventual realization that it was false light I have grieved deeply and worked relentlessly on unmerging. There were so many lessons there as well. We attract what we push against. It is only through compassion and love and forgiveness that we untangle these enmeshments; these karmic entanglements.

 

I am not really a fan of dogma. It gives structure, but it so often divides or limits. I believe in the Law of One. I believe in the core Truth of Love.  And I am sending this out into virtual space, because I want to send it to your physical form in a concrete/ physical manner. May it find you quickly; may we find each other in body form quickly. May the Hathors, the Swans and Archangels Raphael and Chamuel and Maria Magdalena guide us towards each other and may Archangel Michael protect this communication. Thank you.

 

I love you. We are One Soul. We are Always Together.